Judging

At times,
in our lives,
we start judging people,
whether they are just
acting infront of us
or are telling things with full
commitment to their words
we just find reason to doubt our friend
and just disbelieves what he had told us
with keeping reservations i our mind
the prejudice causing harm to
our relationships
and the words we spoke
because of the prejudice
destroying the corner stone
of our deep friendship

:(

sometimes,
we take a pen and stare at the paper so long and cannot write a word or think of something,
that we just scribble something and leave the place for fresh air
we find ourselves blank though our schedule seems to be busy

Darker way

The way we talk to people,
how much truthful we are,
is what we must expect in return

home again

At times, we are immersed in a life with sins and suddenly,
someone anonymous or a distant relative or just a stranger is met unexpectedly...
they talk to us of things which already we know, but while they are busy trying to inspire us, we will busy thinking about where did we go wrong and then we decide to make a change, a positive change towards good.
And then we think why we have been in the mud till that point, and turns back to our lord, with repentance, and a resolution never to turn back.

Sinful

Every now and then,
I get a chance to be good again...
but,
I simply destroys it by merely
moving back to the sinful days
I had been in to...
When I get a chance to do a good deed,
which comes in plenty in life,
I hesitate, and misses it
but when I get a chance to do a sin, which is rare
I just falls in to it... and regret for my choice...

what a bad day to die

You know,

this world is somewhat funny in some of its ways...

It lures us with baits...

tempting us to fall for it,

and we, at a point leap for it...

it is so good a trap that it

makes us FEEL the taste,

and suddenly we reach the obvious fall...

and now, we are hopeless for a while

then, we pick up slowly for a new life..

and there is our next bait, waiting with

better offers,

and we, who do not learn from our past,

go for our next great fall 

Do include in duas...

I just found out that somewhere, at some point in my life my prayers became so much mechanical that right now I don't know whether I am telling Bismillah before I take food...
I think, no I am sure that I need to have a change...

Charity

While roaming through the Jaipur city, I noted one simple thing- on the branches of trees there are earthen pots hung... it is seen at irregular intervals. At first I didn't get what for it was meant... may be some sort of belief or custom. But on the course of time, I got to know that it was meant for feeding birds!!
The city to its outskirts have evolved a culture, a culture of helping even the animals of the arid locality to have a bit of food and water... It is not the flowery emotionally charged words that help others in need, but the simple, small deeds of man, with no presumption of any return from those who are helped, nor a word of thanks expected from them that counts as charity.

Reality

When I had a 'saada' phone, I saw people around me using better phones where there is music player, and they using it to hear Qur'an recitation... I thought like, if I had such mobiles, I would be using to hear Qur'an any time...

After a year or so, I got a phone which could play media files and I got the full audio of the Holy book from a friend... for a period, I used to hear it and eventually it reduced and stopped... During that time android revolution changed the concepts of the world... and apps where we could read Qur'an came... then, I saw my friends using those phones and again I envied them and desired to get a phone with which I could read and hear the Qur'an...

And I got such a phone...

But, right now, I don't know when was the last time I listened to those recitations I carry in my pocket...

:/

To make a child have a plate of food is a laborious task, or so I felt when I tried to feed one of my cousin...
But, then I thought of many children who do not have provision for a meal per day, out of poverty... will they do the same, if I offer them food..?
Certainly not...
I think we have to teach our children what they are force fed is worth much more...
We are so forgetful about the situations around us...

Change

When there is a mood-swing, the thing to be cared is whether we could learn something positive out of it...

Recently, when I was submerged in sins, I could find that this time the situation have turned graver... I forgot the swalah timing twice...
I forgot is a wrong way of telling it... I neglected would be a better word...
There is an Ayat in Qur'an suggesting that if we move back to sins after repenting and repeat this process, then at a point, we could not return back...
I feared it...
And I am still a bit tensed...
If I am repeating my disregard then I will be a total failure...
:(
Hope I turn to good...
Insha Allah, Insha Allah...

wastage

Angane ib examum kaynj...
Jeevihathillakshyabodham nashtapett uzhalunna aathmaavaayi angane nadakkunnu...
:/
Enthukondennariyilla... oro divasavum oro nilakkulla chinthakalumaayi vattupidich aarodo ulla deshyam theerkkunnu...

grudge

It is wonderful to know that despite the very truth of despair hanging in the air, we have enough reasons to be grateful for what we got...
I am lucky to know that I was not loved by people whom I loved and that too directly from them...
I am lucky that, I could still love them, though there is no much change in their attitude towards me...
We could be sad with what we do not have or be content with what all we enjoyed... while we had our own thought processes and enjoyed the moments, without knowing the reality that the person whom we trusted and loved and with whom we were enjoying was in another world... but we did enjoy those moments... right..? If he, didn't found those moments amusing and kept his reservations to himself, then didn't he support us to be happy..?

Hopeless

I became a merchant of hope
But nobody bought anything from me...
So I decided to be merchant of distress,
So that the world be a better place,
since nobody buys anything from me...
But, I now enjoy a good sale

Lost

It is like this...
I was yesterday in a mood to send a message of advice to one of my friend..,
And today, I saw myself immersed in sins and decided to drop it...
But,
I could not understand why my brain pulls me to sins...
:(
Need to build more eemaan