Im bad

Rather than being a person with a darker side,
it is better to confess that Im a bad guy...
the sins piled up day by day...
the thoughts of vengeance, hatred and crookedness...
the acts so cunning, and trust breaking...

yes,
I was and is a bad guy...
change must come from within...
but what comes from within
are the thoughts of sins alone...
the acts that comes out are of sins alone...

somewhere, I lost...
and what i did not understand
was that I lost myself somewhere...

There was that innocent boy...
who would just smile at others..
and do his own works...
without interfering in others matters...
but somewhere he was dragged into
the middle of chaos, or did he just
jumped himself, I don't know,
or I am not sure...
he started ruining his innocence
somewhere in his childhood...
where he found that he lost his childhood...
he started behaving with a masked face
and he could not remove the mask
he made... and he forgot his real face...

and now after years and years...
the child have gone, the boy had gone...
his life have seen many ups and down...
his cheek was rarely soaked in tears...

now, the tears had gone
the old fears have gone...
just to replace with
worse sort of thoughts...


Im sorry...
i could not stop disappointing others...